Mompreneur Maybes

 I'm in a weird position right now.

I've felt for a long time that the more I know the more I realize I don't know, but now I add to that - the more I know, the more I question if it is really information that should be shared so publicly on social media platforms.

Strange to be here since what I've built has been very much a learn and share as I go kind of thing.

It makes me feel confused. It makes me question if my intentions are what they should be and if my art and creations are really having an impact on the world.

One of the problems I am always running into is the platform and the right content. Being that I share a lot on social media I have naturally gotten into the habit over the years of creating content that is short, attractive, and simple. I don't like it and it wasn't always this way. 

When I first started using social media, I did a wider variety of sharing including blogging, longer videos, and podcasting, but as I birthed more children and got busier with the business, I found those quality, long-form types of content were dropping off more often than I liked. It reminds me of boogie boarding as a child and getting sucked under a wave. I'm trying to stay afloat, but in the end I'm just glad if I can catch a quick breath before getting tossed again.

I frequently think about changing things and I'll even spend a few hours every month planning out a new calendar, sleep schedule, morning and night routine, and work regime so that I can bring back the elements I feel are missing. Most of the time I'll get one email, podcast, or blog out before the cycle starts all over again. Every time the cycle starts again I feel more discouraged. I'll say to myself, "well I can't restart my podcast AGAIN! I just told them in the last episode that I was here to stay and that was 6 months ago?? What's the point?" and so I ignore the aching feeling in my muscles to act..., which brings us back to this blog post. 

Honestly as I'm writing this I don't even know if I'll share it. Not to be redundant, but what's the point of sharing one blog post only to get too busy when this time next month comes around. I don't know.

I do know that I actually love writing. I always have. I also love talking. What gal doesn't? And I love learning and sharing.

Maybe if I can just get back to doing more of the things I love then I can take my focus off of the system and put it back on the purpose, the why. Maybe that will help clear my head so I can share what I'm learning with more purity.

Maybe you'll stick around to find out.